//my cosy space of thots//
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Let's ponder some teenage probs, other than how to get rid of that hideous-looking pimple that popped out on my left cheek this morning, say about friendship n socialising, which i haven't been experiencing the both very much, or rather, chose not to venture into lately.

Y? Cause the most realistically of all, is the lack of money to go out, everywhere that u go requires all those papers n dollars in ur wallet. And being a pathetic rank of a lcp, (which i've just been promoted recently x] ) i earn more or less than that of a cleaner auntie. Ok i dunno how much she earns EXACTLY, but the point is there.

And so, i have to choose the ppl that i hang out with, which of course will be the closest ppl around mi since i'll get the highest return in terms of bonds enhanced when i spend my money with them toking cock eating ice-creams. (Close ppl around mi take note, dun ever assume nva look for u means i forget u alreadi, i may be contacting u next week, so beware!)

But, there are times when i'm disappointed with my frens. There r times to have fun, most of the time actually i noe, but when i nid some serious encouragement on sth, will u all be there for me? I try not letting u all know, or i dunno if i shd let u all know, because i dunno am i getting a bit too over-sensitive with myself. Spending too much time in army does make myself think too much that'll crazy things up, i can, of course think on the better side, sarcasm from all of u can motivate mi to do better, but in times to come will it forfeit the relationship we're having? i seriously nid some re-affirmation.

Of course, i speculate the chance of those i want them to read this entry will be like finding an ant in a room, so it doesn't matter if i'm like whining like a kid now.

Let's talk a bit bout socialising now, why am i so not into socialising nowadays? The reason being, firstly my mood, cause am in no mood to make new frens now, so if i really force myself to go make a few, i may be seen as a dao person who HAPPY-REPLY NOT-HAPPY-CB type, like SO MANY hanging around out there, seriously. 2ndly, SO MANY ppl are seriously socialising NOT for the sake of making frens, but wanting to find their one n only, i noe that's not wrong, even my frens r doing that, which i feel happy for them cause finally they have come to their senses their raison d'etre on this earth is not to READ AND LEAD, but to MATE AND MAKE. This socialising has nothing wrong la..but so many r socialising for this sake, how am i gonna realli make frens nway!? *head bang wall repeatedly

Lastly, i'm feeling tired somehow, but i'm holding on..i know i can do it, but i noe this can't go on forever, i mean if it does, either i'm a amoba, or it's simply not based on tis nmore. dun tink i can always give in cause i seem vulnerable. i am not. try pushing mi to the most outward space n yet ensnare mi with unseen strings? nice try.

Opps. last pt not very to the topic..but watever la.

random random imagination, there i am again. ran...dom

+"Peggy Hsu: Feng Zi"+

escorted; - 11:15 PM;

The Facade.

Who, Me?
A fun-loving person
An occasional sentimentalist;
Simple but haphazard
Trust others easily
so be a good friend for me,
or an adroit liar at the very least
Treat mi with whatever fits ur desire,
And receive the same, u shall without denial
Smile, cause believe it or not
this is't ur typical reality,
this is my obstinate chaos.
Ur Mourns.



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De Shun
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Glyn
Jason
Jonathan
Kenny
Ke Jun
Liu Yun
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Min Hui
Si Min
Si Ying
SYCO
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Wei Shi
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