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Tuesday, October 23, 2007

That's it, no more polyclinic medicine for my body,
fuckin factory mass-produced medicine made my body felt more weak...

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nvm, i'll just take mc only from now onwards. *grins

escorted; - 12:10 AM;

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Let's ponder some teenage probs, other than how to get rid of that hideous-looking pimple that popped out on my left cheek this morning, say about friendship n socialising, which i haven't been experiencing the both very much, or rather, chose not to venture into lately.

Y? Cause the most realistically of all, is the lack of money to go out, everywhere that u go requires all those papers n dollars in ur wallet. And being a pathetic rank of a lcp, (which i've just been promoted recently x] ) i earn more or less than that of a cleaner auntie. Ok i dunno how much she earns EXACTLY, but the point is there.

And so, i have to choose the ppl that i hang out with, which of course will be the closest ppl around mi since i'll get the highest return in terms of bonds enhanced when i spend my money with them toking cock eating ice-creams. (Close ppl around mi take note, dun ever assume nva look for u means i forget u alreadi, i may be contacting u next week, so beware!)

But, there are times when i'm disappointed with my frens. There r times to have fun, most of the time actually i noe, but when i nid some serious encouragement on sth, will u all be there for me? I try not letting u all know, or i dunno if i shd let u all know, because i dunno am i getting a bit too over-sensitive with myself. Spending too much time in army does make myself think too much that'll crazy things up, i can, of course think on the better side, sarcasm from all of u can motivate mi to do better, but in times to come will it forfeit the relationship we're having? i seriously nid some re-affirmation.

Of course, i speculate the chance of those i want them to read this entry will be like finding an ant in a room, so it doesn't matter if i'm like whining like a kid now.

Let's talk a bit bout socialising now, why am i so not into socialising nowadays? The reason being, firstly my mood, cause am in no mood to make new frens now, so if i really force myself to go make a few, i may be seen as a dao person who HAPPY-REPLY NOT-HAPPY-CB type, like SO MANY hanging around out there, seriously. 2ndly, SO MANY ppl are seriously socialising NOT for the sake of making frens, but wanting to find their one n only, i noe that's not wrong, even my frens r doing that, which i feel happy for them cause finally they have come to their senses their raison d'etre on this earth is not to READ AND LEAD, but to MATE AND MAKE. This socialising has nothing wrong la..but so many r socialising for this sake, how am i gonna realli make frens nway!? *head bang wall repeatedly

Lastly, i'm feeling tired somehow, but i'm holding on..i know i can do it, but i noe this can't go on forever, i mean if it does, either i'm a amoba, or it's simply not based on tis nmore. dun tink i can always give in cause i seem vulnerable. i am not. try pushing mi to the most outward space n yet ensnare mi with unseen strings? nice try.

Opps. last pt not very to the topic..but watever la.

random random imagination, there i am again. ran...dom

+"Peggy Hsu: Feng Zi"+

escorted; - 11:15 PM;

Monday, October 15, 2007

Finally, my 1st pop compo.

<泣>

又迷失在这梦境，
我走不出去。
回忆还停在，
你我那次的相遇。

是你，
偷走我的一切，
剩下破碎的心。

我，好想再抱住你。
好想再聆听，
你的气息。

假如我，还爱着你。
能不能，跟我回去。

一张照片的惦记，
模糊了谁的过去。
想起那晚的雨，
是否为我哭泣。

尘封住的脆弱，
还是被诺言识破。
爱与被爱的伤痛，
就只有我一个人承受。

我，好想再抱住你。
好想再聆听，
你的气息。

假如我，还爱着你。
能不能，跟我回去。

雨水开始散去，
残留未完的缺遗，
我试着沿着足迹，
找寻你。

我已没力气，
只想回，回到过去。
觅，那身影
我，好想你。

我爱你。

will upload if can once i can get a decent recording done. ^

behave the same between the virtual n realistic world, shall we? can we?

escorted; - 10:31 AM;

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

I've decided to let go of this chance that i saw just last week for a shot at the spop composition contest. Postponed killing heartless in Kingdom hearts 2, cancelled my violin lessons, having countless cups of super 3-in-1s n sleepless nites just to think, erase, think, erase (n so on) the words n sounds.. but there's just too many fundamentals that i'm lacking, not to mention the inproficiency in my piano skill, n there isn't enuff time for me to even deliver a nice melodic idea across the keyboard. Thou i dun really agree with some of the things that tiny has said, he hit to the point by saying that, "U think a good composer or song can come out in just 2 weeks? My time spent getting a grade 8 piano cert. would have been wasted if that's really the case lo."

Ignoring his attempt to emphasize his adroit piano skill xp, it's quite true la, u dun nid a competition to showcase ur talent, u just nid perseverance n the dare to chase ur dreams

Will be looking forward to this competition to hear some great pieces(if there's any) n learn along the way.

And so, i rest my case, for now.

Isn't he/she/watever cute~?

cause i wun give up doing wat i wanna do.

+"S.E.N.S: Brightness"+

escorted; - 5:36 AM;